Dhanteras' 09

15/10/09, Gurgaon

Once again its Dhanteras-first day of the five-day Diwali Festival,when precious metals are bought.It was exactly same day 07/11/2007 (dhanteras) when I gave successful interview for my first job.
Today, the day started very beautifully.There was a Diwali puja in our office and it was mandatory for all to come in traditional wear.So I put on my kurta pyjama and began to lock my room as I was leaving for home for Diwali celebrations.As soon I locked my room my land lady and land lord said that they were thinking that I will leave the next day and they were planning to give me Diwali sweets which they have not bought yet.I was little surprised to hear this.I said that I am leaving today because there is a holiday in my company the next day.On hearing this my land lord presented me some money so that I can buy sweets.He also pressed my shoulder as if showing care.I refused to accept as I was feeling shy.But he insisted to take and wished me and my family for Diwali .I accepeted the money with mix feelings of surprise and goodness.
I have been living in that room since May 20 ,2008.It looks long time in comparison to my colleagues who have changed 6-7 rooms in two year time.My land lord’s behaviour has always been very kind towards me.They helped me in every way-providing the ideal conditions for study.
Its quiet a rare thing to find such land lords in these modern cities where man has become a mechanical machine.
It was a heartening experience which I will remember for long time.

चाहत

बहुत चाहा कि उसे न चाहे,
पर उसकी याद है कि जाती नहीं।

तन्हाई में भी मुझे तन्हा छोड़ती नहीं,
दिल से दिमाग तक उसकी तरंग जाती नहीं।

दिल अब किसी को चाह कर भी नहीं चाहता,
क्यूंकि दिल उसको भूलना नहीं चाहता।

पर उसको पाना है शायद नामुमकिन,
जीना हो गया है मुश्किल उसके बिन।

वो खत्म न होने वाली ख़ुद से ख़ुद की बातें,
उसकी कमी को और बढाती है लम्बी रातें।

कितनी बार की ख़ुद से लडाई,
पर हर बार आंसुओ में ही तमन्ना बहाई।

उसकी आँखें देखूं तो दुनिया भूल जाता हूँ,
पर वो नहीं है मेरी सोच कर ही होश में आता हूँ।

क्यूँ किसी को दिल से मिटाना होता है मुश्किल,
कभी हमने नहीं सोचा था हालत होगी अपनी ऐसी,

नज़रो के सामने वो सदा तैरती रहती है,
उसके एहसास की खुशबू मेरे चारो और महकती रहती है।

सुना करते थे हम दीवानों की कहानियाँ,
मैं एक कहानी न बन जाओ......मुझे ऐसी इनायत बख्श मेरे खुदा।

ऐ खुदा मुझ पर रहम कर ,
मेरे ज़ख्मो का इलाज़ कर.